Truth be told…. I don’t feel at home anywhere right now. Up until recently, despite living in Minnesota and having grown up in Michigan, I would call Arizona home. My soul has a connection to Phoenix that can’t be undone. It’s where I set out on my own path, fell deeply in love, started a life with my husband, where we had our daughter, and where I made friendships that despite time, distance or disagreements are engraved in my heart.
Despite my relentless persuasion, my husband firmly has no interest in returning and I have decided to force myself to give up on the dream of moving back one day. The idealistic memory of what was, is gone. So much has changed in our lives, and much of what and who meant so much are not all there anymore. Sometimes when I think about it, the decision to leave was both the best and worst decision of my life.
There are things I am certain would be drastically different in my personal and professional life if different choices had been made…. I do know one thing for certain though, I would have never followed my passion for Photography if we hadn’t moved. For that I am thankful beyond words, but for the part of my soul that feels like a wanderer, I wish this new year finds you peace, connection and a feeling of home.
